Daily Vlog #10

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Daily Vlog – #1

Hi there! My first Daily Vlog post! Do people still say Vlog? Just a short little video to say hi and start out slow, just a little hello to let you know how I’m doing 🙂

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since we last spoke

Be well internet!

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media roundup

Hello friends! I’m making a little post to direct you to a couple interviews/notable media pieces I’ve been involved with. I apologize for not posting more, but there is a method to my madness, and I am still around and well (as well as any struggling artist can be in NYC). I’ve been trying to minimize my exposure while i’m doing my rounds in the press, I’d like folks to see the site and what I do as an ongoing piece of self-expression, as opposed to a “Look at meeeeee” pattern that is easy to fall into as a blogger. I’m doing my own thing, shooting video and working on projects, expect to see the fruits of my labor once the dust settles a bit.
I’ve got a press agent in the UK working on my story, a photojournalist just left after taking some portraits for a “faces of fetish” project he’s working on, and i’m being flirted with by a couple other media outlets. I’ve been posted and analyzed by a number of blogs, a 50/50 split of good and bad press. Aaaaand of course, the AB’s are still upset that i’m trans, and the trans people are still pissed that i’m AB/DL, and the general public is reacting with gaping maws and vigilant trolling. Still, as I’ve mentioned in the past most of my readers and people that have responded directly here have been kind and supportive of my decision to get my story out there. Thanks ❤
So here we are, check these out… 

There’s a ton of blogs that aren’t really worth mentioning, and you can find comments/etc on various videos where there’s discussion going on, mostly horrible. As I mentioned, look forward to more stuff soon! I’ve attached a short little (fake)french film I made back in 2006, a favorite project of mine. It was for a 10-day filmmaking event focused around the theme “Love, Loss, Redemption and the Afterparty”. Here’s the movie and the write-up, enjoy this little tongue-in-cheek ode to the saddest movies in the world.
“Best Random Act of Artistic Audacity”
Riley Kilo took up the 2006 Sacramento International Film and Music Festival’s 10×10 Filmmaker Challenge–to make a flick of no more than 10 minutes in no more than 10 days–with aplomb. Having bravely led a discussion on the brutal cinematic angst of Gaspar Noé at the French Film Fest a few weeks earlier, Kilo went on hilariously and ingeniously to send up arty, existential Euro-poseur vanity in his own nimble short film, L’ordre de reptillian du jour (The Reptilian Agenda). The brief tale of a suicidal mope narrating his despair in pouty pidgin French (with help from subtitles), L’ordre is but one of Riley’s “Random Acts,” an ongoing series of happenings he describes as a “mixture of performance art, independent media street theatre, live music, and poetry.” His character in the movie may be “overcome with shame and remorse,” but the actor and director should be duly proud. (Source: SN&R- September 28th, 2006)
(I guess I was a he back then 😛 I used my christian name, so I changed it later on)
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I represent me

Here’s a quick little video talking about life, diapers, TV, everything!
If you’re here from My Strange Addiction, check this out ❤
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Trans FAQ

Here’s an FAQ for the site!
Watch on youtube to skip to specific questions, this is a long one!
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normal, strange, unique

Here’s a little video where I talk about my life in NYC, my upcoming television premiere and my interest in ageplay/diapers/regression. More words and thoughts and images soon!
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Drag March

It’s inspiring to see this many people come together to help redefine gender lines, and express themselves the way they see fit. Of all the videos this weekend, this was the most fun to film/edit
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Here’s a video of the 2011 Trans Day of Action in NYC.

I’d like to clarify a couple comments in the video…
I have a strong belief that Trans-people are a VERY at risk group of people, for suicide, drugs, violence, rape, depression, homelessness, the statistics are there, it’s why days like this are so important. I wa a bit disheartened by the amount of time they spent on the “War for Oil”, there’s so much to be said about being trans and transrights, covering too much can distract from the point. 
As for my feelings about Pride, I think it;s a good thing, but much like many other things I find precious, It’s been overrun by corporate entities and advertising. It’s marketing this image of what it is to be gay, and that doesn’t sit well with me. The overwhelming presence of companies like Anheuser-Busch, it seems to be a step-backwards in our progress as a culture, focusing on our vices not on the path ahead.
It’s tough for me a little bit, when filming at an event like this, I generally feel out of place due to mot folks seeing me as a genetic female, like I’m an outsider looking in, and on the opposite end, when I’m at more gay/lesbian events, I am a bit out of place for being trans, something many folk still don’t understand (or venture to understand). 
There’s a ton of positive things going on and some negative trends as well, I think it;s important for the community to unite and find a proper groove, things are getting better and better for LGBT people everyday, lets not stop now!
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Legalize it

NY state just legalized gay marriage! I went to Stonewall to capture the festivities leading up the decision, to see the angst and anger or elation and expression. The moments leading up to it were tense, as you can see in the video, and when they finally passed the vote, the bar, streets, whole village exploded. I’ve seen pride festivals, gay legislature passed, crazy street parties, this was those and more. There was a thick NYPD presence and the city showed it’s diversity by the many bystanders that had little to no idea why tons of GLBT people were losing their minds in the streets. The energy of excitement and liberation was there, the weather, mood, music, everything represented clouds opening to bring in a refreshing new glow to a city. There were many glowing couples tonight, part of a discriminated against people who just were allowed another step towards being recognized as equals, many steps to go, but this is a big one. This happened in California, everybody got excited, I was there at the rallys and parties and then it was all taken away, I hope it’ll stick this time.

There’s a humid smog that resonates over the city this time of year, but tonight was crips, clean, a beautiful June night. There’s many people who can breathe a little easier tonight, knowing that a chapter in the fight for legally expressing their love has come to a close. It’s another 30 days before it goes through and there’s always more bumps in the road ahead, but tonight is awesome, and a majority of New York lawmakers managed to do the “Love” movement a solid tonight. Very exciting, now let’s find the next fight (gender rights maybe?) and get behind that with all 100,000 jiggawatts that our community can produce when we unite. Transday of action was cool, lots of different agendas, sign waving and speeches, a nice little march around city hall, but the numbers weren’t there yet.

The Drag march was also a bit of a drag, it was more about burningman-esq freak-outery than rights and legislation, and that’s cool, just more of a crazy party than anything. It’s interesting to see beautiful girls who haven’t started and have no desire to transition, just hot made-up men, alongside transpeople, cisgendered people and genderhackers. It’s inspiring to see people get down in a unique way, but does pride have the same effect as burning man, when folks go crazy for a small part of the year and then going back to conforming as soon as the playa is washed off or the glitter fades? Who knows, NYC is so terribly diverse that its best not to judge folks off of appearances… wait, that’s an awful thing to do anywhere.

Tonight was awesome, I’m exhausted, enjoy the video 🙂 Trans Day of Action and Drag March videos coming soon, I feel like I took part in something historic, I’m totally giddy right now as I sit down at the computer to edit the video you see above. More stuff soooon!

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